recipe for failure

ASO to finals. whoever decided it was a good idea to have 4 tests based on everything learned in a semester in one week's time was seriously deranged. It's a recipe for sleep depravation, failure, and the pre-requisite of illness (which apparently is a state of mind....)

just my opinion. 3 down, one to go. and i have 3 full days to study-- which is great considering i haven't opened the book since the last class (monday i believe?) i took my third today. when i was done, i took my books to the bookstore and sold them back. my two books for only ONE class cost me over 200 dollars originally. money back: 50 dollars. who the fuck is benefiting this much off my education, cause it sure as hell ain't me.

i'm just bitter. i need to be done. and it's not even that i'm eager to go home and see my family, i just want to be done worrying, done always feeling guilty for not studying. i hate being stressed, and although i loved camp, i was stressed continuously. which means that except for maybe a cumulative total of 1 month, i have been stressed for over a year. that's not healthy. and from bio molecualr chem, i learned that chronic stress produces cortisol-- the body's mechanism for packing on the pounds? at least i've figured why i've gained hmmm 15 poundsish?

but that's no excuse. lol. i'm just ready to kick it. december 23-- FINALS 2 DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS. that hardly gives me time to de-stress before the big day. let alone shopping. what am i supposed to do though. i like the in-state tuition and the big 10 school. it's just hard reading facebook statuses of everyone, LITERALLY EVERYONE complaining about how bored they are? give me a break. i'd trade with you any day. i used to like school, look forward to learning new things, but everyone needs a break. i need to relax. i need a back massage. hehehe.

unresponsiveness

not getting a response from someone sucks. especially when you think for a long time about what you should say and how to say it. for example, when you like a boy. you think for hours upon end about if you should text them in the first place, and then if-- IF you decide the answer is yes, you think about what you're going to say. once it's all said and done, you send the text, expecting a text back sometime soon. after all, you did just agonize for hours as to if you should send the text in the first place.

i've heard it's only girls who do this, and the self-consious ones at best, but i'm almost thinking that anyone who thinks they could lose, would think about what they are going to write, how they are going to communicate before they do. that's how human nature works. no one wants to have their foot in their mouth-- feet just aren't that clean.

however, i think my problem is just my phone. some weird things have been happening lately, so i believe it's safe to assume my mobile device is the one at fault-- not the people i've been trying to correspond with. at least i hope that's what's up...

college play day?

16 inches of snow in one night. i believe this constitutes a snow day. at least for any elementary, middle, or high school it does. college on the other hand, are there such things as snow days? it's hard to believe that something of the sort could exist, especially in wisconsin where winter is expected, glorified. however, it happened. we had a snow day in college! first one since 1978. and it was great.

there were rumors beginning around 10am of the great snowfall to come. i didn't believe it. i thought there might be a foot of snow, but never 16 inches, and never a snow day. i could remember my freshman year, trudging up the hill, pissed off becasue all of the other schools had closed, including the other college in town. yet my school, my university was too good to close. i was not going to get my hopes up again.

in my weather class, the TA spoke of this huge storm forecasted for exactly our town. he was excited, saying it was a sure thing, but meteorologists are never correct, so again, i wasn't believer. i did, however, begin to hope. i wanted a snow day. my hopes were over thrown by him intervening, telling us he'd LOVE a snow day, but not at our institution. i left feeling discouraged, ready for break.

my friends kept talking. it wasn't helping the situation. my teachers and professors were hopeful too, probably because they didn't want to teach another class. that evening, i made my dinner and turned on my television show, only to realize i'd have to begin my homework within the next 30 minutes.

then my friend texted me. she told me there was a snow day the following day. i could not believe it and still thought it was a joke. only this morning, we had been talking about a possible snow day, but there's no way in hell they'd ever call it the night before, before the snow had even fallen! i texted her back asking her how she knew, and she directed me to the school website.

it took forever to load, probably due to the overuse of eager college students all wanting to read the good news with their own eyes. sure enough, school was canceled for the following day, and to top it off, all non-essential jobs were cancelled too! i didn't have to go into work! i was over joyed, and began texting everyone i knew to brag about my new findings.

i spent the joyous evening alone, watching trashy television and eating popcorn. while everyone else was downtown, i was nestled in my living room, armed for a night of peaceful relaxation. and that's exactly what i got for the next 24 hours. other than clearing off my car (which took my roommate and i about an hour working together!!) i stayed inside, watching television and sleeping. it was the perfect way to start the downward spiral of finals.

i'll probably never get a snow day again in my life, but the one i had was pretty damn great!