i could say i'm a 'bit overwhelmed'-- but that'd be quite the understatement. i am completely and utterly behind in school with the test that defines my future on friday. i have not finished the work book, i have not copied the slides and i have not memorized. i am completely unprepared and not ready for this exam.
alas, i'm blogging because i'm at work, unable to study. this is good for me though. everybody needs balance in their life, and so from going between work and school, i kind of get a 'built in break' for both. it's good. i like work. the people are sweet and i feel like i am genuinly helping, however i am extremely excited about the prospect of being a nurse and helping people that way. i started watching this new tv show (i know i know... exactly what i need to fill up my life) and it makes me want to be there even more. although, the whole school thing was kind of giving me a run for my money...
my brother is coming thursday night, which is amazing, but also stressful because of my test. i really need to just crack down and do it. i need to ban internet from my apartment along with phone, televison, kitchen and everything else i could do. i need to be in solitary confinement with only my anatomy text book, my work book and my notebook. i feel if that happened, i would actually accomplish things. hahaha. this is pathetic. i should be able to sit down and get shit done. i probably could-- my attention span is just so short. i can only really concentrate on something if i really like it ANDD if i'm not pressured to do it. so school is basically OUT OF THE QUESTION. well, studying anyway.
but i need to get better, and chances are that when the test is here, i will be ready. but again, no promises. for the time meaning, i am sitting in my desk chair thinking about all the stuff i need to get done, with no time to do it-- and that's always productive, right?
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